Day 4

Another long day! But, I don't have work tomorrow, so I'm over it by now! I started off my morning with another slim fast shake! I don't really like them, but I chug them and tell myself it is for the best. After, I hit the road for my internship. I was halfway there when I realized I LEFT MY ALMONDS AT HOME!!!!! I wanted to kick myself... but then I considered a different angle... If I don't get a lunch break, I will not eat and thus be skinny. I quickly forgave myself for forgetting the almonds, and started praising myself. I am brilliant!
I ended up going to Jimmy Johns for lunch. This time, I had no calorie content to go off of so I ordered the turkey sandwich with NO MAYO. I had two packs of yellow mustard on the side so essentially it was a dry sandwich. It had turkey, lettuce, tomato and sprouts... note to self-- I HATE SPROUTS! Regardless, I ate them hoping it was healthy and low in calories. I tore off bread here and there and left feeling pretty hungry so I am going to go with the idea that it wasn't that many calories.
I just got home and ran for the fridge. RAN. These days I am either starving or hungry. Well okay, I was full after that mexican buffet last night, but other than that, hungry is a good thing.
I ate cherry tomatoes like a drunk girl with Taco Bell. My parents are cooking out some kind of meat so I figured I would wait and make that my main course. Also, I already decided in my drive home that I would be eating a 100 calorie ice cream sandwich for desert. The fact that I already decided means it is for SURE happening, so there is something to look forward to!
I am going to lunch with my aunt tomorrow at a mexican restaurant. I am stressing out. I already attempted to look up the calorie content of the menu on line...no freakin' luck! I can't say I am surprised. Regardless, the thought of mexican and dry salad is making me cringe. THINK SKINNY, EMILY! I will just repeat that all day. Maybe I should eat before I go so I am just hungry, not starving at lunch? Almonds? I'll let you know!
Also, I am heading to Norman to visit some friends after lunch. I am baking them some turtle bars (think chocolate, carmel and goodness). This is going to be the biggest challenge yet. Well other than being starving all the time and eating mexican for lunch. But really, how do you make something that great without eating half of the batter in the process? I am sure any NORMAL person would have no issue with this, then again, most normal people don't have food consume their life so much that they have to write an entire blog about it.
I feel like anorexic people always bake things and then let other people eat it in front of them to feel better about themselves. Seriously? How? I crumble for dip, give me batter and a spatula and you better believe I am NOT capable of washing it down the drain, there are starving people in China, right?
Ok. I am going to chug a glass of water. Maybe that will help suppress my hunger? Regardless of what is to come in this challenge I have chosen to face, I GET ICE CREAM TONIGHT!!!!! So, life is great!